hallo

guvnor. the rain did last until today! YAYAYAY! (: so happy because we didn't have to run. this week's been turning out pretty good for me and tomorrow's friday. i gotta get ready and start studying for my ap exam that's coming up! oh and the euro final. shit my teacher really wants to kill my grade. let's see that F go lower.

lovely weather we've been having, eh?

indeed my good ladies and gentlemen. i really really really love the rain because it's so soothing and gentle. the one thing i love more than rain is walking home in the rain. heh even though i get ridiculously wet and might get a cold, it's all good. best part is this rain's going to last until thursday. (:

oh hello there

fuck you. you've always given me a bad vibe ever since i've known you from years before and now you've proved yourself how shitty a person can be. hell i pushed away all bad thoughts and turned a leaf because i thought that you were a true friend. but no. really? open your damn eyes and see for yourself how the world does not fucking revolve around you. oh you're going to whine? you know what, go ahead nothing's stopping you. it's better for me because you're just letting everyone know your true bratty self, not that damn fake facade you've been pulling. yeah, bitch how that i'm the bitch and you're just the nice girl next door who didn't do shit when it was actually the other way around. the things i want do to you, i'd be in jail and ruin my future, but you're not worth it. you were never worth my time.

like i said before. fuck. you.

airplanes

i can really use a wish right now.

really. i'd wish for stop what i'm feeling right now. the unsettling feeling of doing nothing to finally achieve a major something like a goal will go away and then i can live my life to the fullest. cliche yes, but i can't help it. i don't think that i can ever get anything out of this life i'm living because i just don't try. my cynical self just tells me that i can't do it, i will never be able to grab onto the prize that i want so dearly and i listen. i listen even before i give myself a chance and i really hate that. i say that i'm going to change myself but it's an empty promise. it's beyond procrastination, it's beyond giving up. i never try. and i wish for that to not be the case.

dilemma

so i've been experiencing some more internal conflicts, but this time it has to do with the opposite sex. i wish that i had something like a light switch in my brain that doesn't let me like guys for a time being because it wastes so much time and shit. if only if only.

i've decided

lately i've been wanting to get some tattoos when i turn 18. so i've decided to get 2 and they will be quotes. probably in script cause script tattoos are the best.

i found this picture of this quote tattoo but i forgot where i saw it. -__-
anyways it said : 'love is enough'. i think i'd get that oneeeee. & i'm still deciding on the second one.

may 7th; 3PM

i really can't wait until it's that time. cause then all euro students will be done with their AP exams and we won't have to worry until the letter comes in july/august.

may 7th. 3PM. come right now.

sooooooooo

i'm going back to gg to return those bball shoes i bought yesterday at jcpenny's. at first i thought that they were pretty good but nothing could beat nike's. HAHAHAHA if i could afford to get some nike's that is. oh well, got to get the best deal at foot locker with my $65. (:

my letter to you

dear boy with flannel shirts

i wonder what my life would be if i never had music class with you. but then again, i wouldn't want to know because you bring me the greatest happiness within the smallest moment. even though i can't muster up the courage to talk to you, just know that you make my day. everyday.

love girl with glasses.

@ cousin's

& we're having a grey anatomy's marathon, seasons 2-4. i'm hooked onto that show, so intense and shit ohmyyyyyy.

damn

i think that i ate too much gogi for dinner. now i feel like puking my guts out. and i have this raging headache that won't go away. siiiiiiiiigh.