just go.

just the thought of letting go makes us hold on tighter. even though we don't want to, it's always the best choice to move ahead, not dwell in the past. best choice, but not always the right choice.

get on with your life

i'm pretty sure that it's time for me to move on from this useless attraction that i won't get anything out of, just unwanted pain and misery. i hate it how we girls are more dependent, we need more time to move on, and yet, when we think that we've moved on, we're just lying to our selves to hid the plain truth. we shower ourselves with excuses, excuses, excuses --- and those excuses aren't excuses anymore when we see the guy of the moment in the hands of another girl. we smile and cower behind a mask, create a facade to fool others and yet

we will never fool ourselves.

screw you cp

these days, i feel like i'm living the same old, the same old. it's pissing me off too because i know what i'm gonna do in a few hours, so there's no point in trying to think into the future. walk home, procrastinate, eat, procrastinate more, start homework, BS homework, procrastinate, sleep. and the cycle repeats.

oh and the studying for college, sat, psat, and act pisses me off. i've got enough time ahead of me to prepare but the typical asian parents are nagging to start now. also, doing a megaload of community service, joining diverse clubs, and spreading what i can do out there is leaving a mark in my sleep. starting all of this college prep and keeping up with all of this college prep will and is going to kill me. and my social life.

goodbye social life.