school's over

And summer school starts. Oh wow, there's still a way for education to dominate our lives even when vacation begins. Anyways. Playing at graduation yesterday made me think about how time flies. I'm entering into another year of high school and a step closer to entering college. As the seniors walked across the stage to receive their diplomas, it occurred to me that there's still three years of high school left for me and how that three years can fly past too quickly. And that, ladies and gentlemen, makes me feel ... weird.

Think outside the box

These days, I've noticed that original ideas and creativity are coming to a slow stop. Why? Maybe it's because all the creative ideas are already used and there's no new ideas to elaborate from. I think that the adults should take a step back and just relax for a bit. Maybe let the youngins take the reins and be in control for once, let's see how that works out. Because these days, I've noticed many intricate designs coming from the youngins themselves. When I saw the yearbook for my school, I was astonished. And speechless. Too bad it's $100 now, I can't go ask my parents for the money just for a glossy book. Anyways, back to the topic. Maybe the world should just stop coping and think together for a more artful place to live.

He who hesitates is lost.

I really don't think that I can live life fully. Something's always there to hold me back, like this invisible hand is blocking my way of living life. It's been pmo lately, the way I try to do stuff but I can't because I feel like I can't. Yknow that feeling? The main conflict is maybe I can't trust; anyone or anything.

And I'm 1000% sure that this invisible hand will cause me a shitload of problems later in the future. And there always those what-if's! What if this happens, or what if ...? Just this afternoon, I found out that I'm a very hypocritical person; a part of me wanting attention so much yet I can't do shit for it. Like what? It actually paused me in my community service and made me think. Like, I really don't have a clue on what to do with my life.

SCREW YOU INVISIBLE HAND.

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One of my greatest fears --- Aging.

During my community service, I was working in a convalescent home. And it scared the shit out of me while I was working around these aged women and men. All spending their days either on a bed or confined to a wheelchair. I thought, is this me in 50 years? At first, working in a convalescent home seemed to be appealing, helping out these residents when reality bitchslapped me. I really do not want to see myself age.

dear darla

i hate your stinking guts. you are the scum between my toes. you make me vomit.
love alfalfa.

what a cutie.

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stupid responsibilities.

STFU!

---save trees for us.